I have grown NUMB to the pain of trying to fight and build the purpose only God could lay before me. Why didn't anyone tell me this road would be so rocky that the glimpse you had before would become demolished. I once had all the faith because the road looked nothing like this only a little bit easier.Who knew a faith walk, trusting and believing would keep me on eggshells and my chest and stomach in knots and instead of walking on water I'm walking on fire. This walk is painful and my head seems as if my head will always be down instead of up with no confidence. I'm only a vessel trying to make the right decisions but instead, I'm always punished. Can anyone explain that?